"For it is for freedom that Christ has set us free!" -Galatians 5:1
How could I ever deal with the guilt of not feeling worthy enough? The feelings of inadequacy? After doctors told me I would never have children... here God was blessing me again.
How did I even deserve this grace? The truth is, I didn't. But that's what grace is all about. Grace is about God having a crazy love for us that makes no sense.
During labor, my heart rate dropped so low. They started preparing me for the worst, because Freedom's heart rate was almost completely gone. I ended up having a natural birth - which was something I never wanted to do because of the pain involved. But sometimes it's the pain we experience in life that brings us to a place of change and freedom.
Through this miracle of her birth, when we almost lost both my life and hers during delivery, I've learned that God's plans are preeminent and the only ones that matter. He knows what's best!
February, 20th, 2018: it is a day that I will never forget. I'm so thankful for my little Lyric (our ham) for capturing the moments for us! (She did this for a homeschool project that requires her to use media. She was so excited about her new little sister!)
There are so many people I'm grateful to for their presence and love during this season.
I'm thankful for all my friends who have hit the pavement with me and my crazy dreams and never complaining once, including recording even while in labor (I had no idea)!
I'm thankful for my beautiful, anointed, loving God mother Jackie Downing for never leaving my side.
I'm thankful for my girls helping me breathe during the tough times. They are consistent little girls!
And I'm thankful to my husband, William Watts, for being every single thing he promised me he'd be-- 365 days a year, 24/7. He's seriously the best dad in the world!
God does everything well in His time! He brings dead things back to life and gives beauty for ashes!